HUGE Breakthrough

Ok so its like this...every once in awhile the Kitty has a breakdown. Not sure why, not even really sure what brings it on. But every once in while I get so frustrated during a pratice I literally feel like crying. It happened tonight.
I just couldn't catch the girl at the front of the blocking line and it just broke me down. And you know what...its totally ok!
I cried...so what...a little frustration tears can go along way! Kind words from team mates go every further! My derby wife successfully talked me down and I took a moment then got right on to the next drill.
Now a month ago I may have given up, taken my skates off and gone home just sure I was never gonna make it. Not tonight! Tonight I took my moment, brushed myself off and got right back too it!
This is what will make me a force to be reckoned with when my skates finally catch up to my heart! I love this sport, I love this league, it's a piece of my heart now!

There's no place like home!

Got home from Europe late last night. Vacation was great but it seems like as soon as I got home I started thuinking about derby again. I am so addicted it hurts!

Met up with some of my girls today and skated, between the sea legs and the jet lag I totally blew HOWEVER...I still went and I did my laps I even managed to slip in a Cha Cha Slide and a race! I didn't win but I didn't give up either!

It totally Ok to have a bad week!...Right?

OK so I was just OFF this week! My speed is getting better but my mind was just not there. It must be the impending vacation. But that's ok! I know I love derby and this just wasn't my week. But I didn't give up I just kept going and that's what counts!
Keep Going Roller Babies!!!!

Addiction to Derby

Ok so you know you're addicited to Derby when:
You actually call the cruise line to see if you can bring you're skates with you. Stupid NCL, the answer was no. COurse the hubby, while sweetly saying he'd lug them all over Europe even tho he didn't want to, was slightly relieved.

Bruises Bruises everywhere and not a drop to spare!

Yep Derby=Bruises!

Currently I am rocking several beautiful shades of blue and purple on various body parts. But hey its all part of the game...no really!
Todays lesson: Ya gotta fall down, You will fall down, It's OK to fall down! Basically the old adage is true! Fall down 100 times get up 101! Thats what this Freshmeat girl is gonna keep doing!!!

OH That's right...

Remembered something today. Skating is suppose to be FUN! I hit up the rink on a non-practice day to just skate some laps and work on my elusive crossover. I had a BLAST! Met Brigitte there and Brandy was having her daughter's birthday party today. And we just had fun! I skated tons of laps and prolly did more crossovers ( or attempts anyway) than ever before. We did silly dances and dodged babies and just in general had a great time.
What dawned on me is this is why I was intrigued with derby in the first place. I LOVE to skate. I love feeling like I'm flying with the wind in my hair. I love rolling around like a goof ball and pretending I have rhythm. I love cheesy roller skate music.
For a minute there I was letting some BS ( most of my own doing) get in the way of the fact that I LOVE ROLLERDERBY! Today I was reminded....

F to the E to the AR!

So I went for a walk today after practice, it was too pretty to stay in! And in my head I was coming up with the things that are holding me back. And I think I can break each one down to fear. It seems to be a irrational fear..aren't they all?

Main Problems:
Cross over...EVERYTIME!
Problem-Fear of falling
Truth-WHAT? I fall all the damn time so why does it bother me to think that I MIGHT tip over a bit in the corner?

Get the self doublt out of my head!
The problem-The echoing voice...You Can't You Can't echo's in my head!
The truth-Would I have thought 8 months ago that I'd even be ON a derby team much less at the point I'm at and how far I've come???

My body type will keep me slow forever.
The truth-Derby LOVES a bigger booty! Perhaps a little better eating habits and a fitness routine outside of practice could help though!

Things usually come so easy for me so if I hven't gotten by now I never will.
The problem-it rarely takes me this long to pick up on something.
The truth-I haven't tried to be on a sports team since High School! This is a real sport and takes skill and dedication. I got one and am working on the other!

So for any fresh meat who might read this. Don't let the problems get you down. Tell yourself the truth and go from there. If you're as addicted as I am you'll stick with it and when the time is right...release your inner Zombie!